Hey, She’s back! What took you so long??

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I made this WordPress account when I was in publishing class and over time forgot about it. I’ve been super busy working on the non-profit human trafficking organization AngelsGoToWork and still working a full time job to maintain the bills. The book has been doing well and I just did a signing the other day at a fund raiser. One of the new friends I met asked about a blog and I was like “Yes, I have one, but I haven’t used it” She quickly told me to get right on it. So, I’m Back!

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Why me Lord?

“Why me Lord?”

A question I’ve often heard asked but never asked about myself as a survivor of abuse is always wondering What? instead of Why? I asked, “What?” What is this for? What is the purpose? God has a purpose for everything and it’s not to hurt me, I’m sure.

Why?  That question drove me crazy when my children were growing up. Why this? Why that? Why?  Why?  Why? Let’s break it down. Why?, is an information seeking question. We are an inquisitive species and seek to gain knowledge every day, all day, and that’s not a bad thing. Every child wants to know “Why is the sky blue?” However, we can also use why in a form that doesn’t give us all the information we are in need of. Why doesn’t answer the real question we should be asking. When we are hurting we ask “Why me?” It’s a selfish question and doesn’t get to the root of the purpose. Would it really matter “why” you were the one chosen? Here’s the better question. Why Not?

We are emotional beings and when we get stuck in a state of “Why me?” we tend to focus on all of the negative aspects of the situations we experience. Focusing on the negative easily starts the spiraling reaction of fear, guilt, and shame.  All lead to depression. When we are clouded by these emotions, we can spend our entire lives missing the mission that was given to us. It’s time to stop asking “Why me?” and start asking “Why not?” “What is this for?” “What can I learn from this?” “What is the purpose?” What can I do for others who may encounter this situation?” Find the positive in the situation and it will lead you to the purpose.

I believe, the life purpose for every living thing on the face of this earth was planned out before the foundation of the earth was set. I know that the reason I went through the things I did in my life, and the reason you have gone through the things in your life, is all part of an intricate plan. It’s looking within ourselves that can tell us where we belong in that plan. “Listen” to yourself internally to determine what direction to go in next. When you listen to the happenings of your life and seek to overcome them rather than be deafened from the noise of it; you can find the purpose to your life.

I now call it training. ‘Lessons’, if you will. Training brought me to my purpose. And given that it is necessary to have all different kinds of people in the world.  It’s also necessary that they experience different things to give them the knowledge they need to help them develop mentally. If your only question is focused on yourself, you silence what could possibly benefit others.  You are leaving out the real purpose of your life, and you are unknowingly helping the advancement of your sorrows. Evil is silent and stealthy. We have to start talking about the abuses that occur in our society. We have to overcome the fear that lives in silence and stand up for what is right to cause a reversal of the norm. When we become bold enough to begin talking about it, standing up for yourself becomes the norm rather than silence.

So what was your training in? Do you know? Take a look at your life. What was it for? What am I to do with this? Don’t just sit on your training, hiding it from others like it’s something to be ashamed of. You were trained for a specific purpose. It could be to reach out to millions like Gandhi, or it could be to reach out to one like the daily heroes we hear about; those we don’t hear about; or the person who saved themselves that no one knows of. Had they not listened to know their training and find their calling, to be available for their purpose, they would not be who they are and we, as a society, would not reap the benefits of their keen senses and develop into our own true self-awareness.

We are not here living on this earth to serve only ourselves. We are only living to serve others. Are you using your life experience to service others? If not, why not?

I encourage you to take a moment and think back, check your training manual. Did you study the lessons? Do you know what they were for? Find your purpose, God didn’t train you for nothing…

The power of Silence


Ya know, I’m not sure that people really understand the full power of silence. Silence is used in many different forms, it can heal… and it can kill. When I was rising up out of my silence I wanted to remove the word from my dictionary. I wanted to never be silent again. But what I didn’t realize was I needed the silence. I needed it just as bad as they did. They used it against me and now I use it against them. I use my silence to pray, to meditate, to remember, to pour my soul out. What was meant to kill…now heals.

The things we should shout about the most are the things we talk about the least. We keep it in silence hoping no one will know so no one will judge you for it. In that silence the situation is still working on your mental wellbeing. Any issues that you face in life must be dealt with. If you don’t deal with them, they will certainly deal with you. It will throw you off balance and have you spun around in a direction you never intended on going down.

When you take control of the silence you are able to influence your own mental wellbeing. Once you break your own silence you can start to heal and start to help others. When you begin to help others break the silence that’s when the real recovery can take place.

I was a victim. Now I am a Survivor of Human Trafficking. Of the hundreds of men who raped me only three received any kind of sentence for a crime. I’ve broken the silence and written a few books about my life. The first of those books ~….And he called me Angel~ will be released in Feb 2015. The second ~ Silencing an Angel ~ will come shortly after and the third is yet to be named.

As I have gone through the process of writing these books I have found my voice and I am ending the silence for me and many others. I am active in the fight against Human Trafficking and I’m looking for more Angels to join the fight. I have also found that I love to write and I have information to share. Thus the beginning of my blog. I hope to share my thoughts, life lessons and creative thinking with all of you. And with followers I hope to gain more knowledge about the world and the people in it and maybe have a support group to help each other along the way.

With that being said,….let’s get the show on the road!

Hello world!


I am so excited to begin my new blog based on my non-ficton book based on my years as a victim of Human Trafficking in the Heartland, Oklahoma City. The purpose of this blog is not only to create an audience for my book but also for a resource for information related to Human Trafficking in the USA.